The 1,000 Mommies

This chapter is written by onezero.

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I always hear a buzz. It is not cicadas, which is what my fleshy brother Doug said that it was, for that is the buzz resounding within his ears. Oh, I hear the cicadas, all right! They sound like the crispy green summer!

This other buzz is not audible to fleshy ears. But I wonder if my sister might feel it in the spaces in her bones, the way I do!

Tamarind

The buzz is the voice of my one thousand mommies.

They talk to me always, except for when they listen.

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They told me that my hypothetical blue brother or sister is just that–hypothetical.

I told them about what Wittgenstein says, “What can be shown cannot be said.”

“Of course,” their one-thousand buzzings reply. “This man of the W had one thousand mommies, too.”

I knew it!

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This is why, when I read his words, I feel that I am reading the bed-time story that my one thousand mommies would read to me in their one thousand buzzings.

“To be able to represent the logical form, we should have to be able to put ourselves with the propositions outside logic, that is outside the world.”

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All the buzzings enter the world from outside the world, and they tell the meaning which they find from outside of meaning, that is outside the world.

My daddy has found happiness again.

Chandler

The thousand mommies tell me that they brought him home–that is, outside the world–so that they could thank him for being my dad.

And they had something to return to him, which was a piece of his affection which he left up there during his first visit, when he got me.

He has all of his affection now, which he can share freely with us here, and so he has all of his happiness, and we have all of our happiness to share with him in return.

Chandler

Dougie, too, understands the logic that is outside of logic. He tells my dad what we understand, that “the musical thought, the score, the waves of sound, all stand to one another in that pictorial internal relation, which holds between language and the world.”

Our dad does not know what this means.

I tell him, “This is simple, Daddy. It is the words that confuse, not the meaning. Just listen to music. Listen, Daddy! Now speak the word. Say it! It is the same. What music describes, that holds the same connection, internally with what it represents, that language does with what it represents.”

And for a moment, my daddy understands.

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Then it is gone! No matter, Daddy. Your children understand.

“The subject does not belong to the world but it is a limit of the world.”

All around me is love. This is not a symbol of the feeling–not the word itself–but the actual.

Sugar

It is the actual substance in the warmth between my fleshy aunt Sugar and my in-world mommy.

Its symbol is the crooked smile of my fleshy sister Tamarind.

Sugar

“There is indeed the inexpressible. This shows itself; it is the mystical.”

This is the substance of the warmth that we share–this is love.

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