My Digital Life: The Blue-Green Density

Blue. That’s what I remember first. Blue of the sky.

To the other side, green of the sea.

I stand where sea and sky merge into light, as if that merging is my genesis.

At that moment, all potential exists.

I’m a man.

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Click.

A woman.

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I could be anything. Nothing is determined; nothing is set.

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Click.

My nose is smaller.

Click.

My chin shrinks.

Click. My ears protrude less.

My forehead is pulled into a softer angle.

I feel myself settle into… me.

At this moment, I want nothing, and I have no thoughts. Is it bliss? It’s a state I’ve tried to return to, sometimes succeeding, more often failing. It’s the state of waiting, of potential, when everything is possible and nothing determined.

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From this expanse, I feel the urge to create.

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What is it that is at my core? What’s behind these clicks that fashion me into myself?  I want to explore and understand. I want to know the perfection at the center of this process and to bring my life and all I create into alignment with it.

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And with the stirring of that desire, I’ve stepped outside of the vastness of potential.

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No matter how far I walk, I travel nowhere.

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The blue doesn’t shift. The light doesn’t fade. The green doesn’t dissolve.

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Am I traveling if space travels with me?

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If I’m the only point in space, is it still space?

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No matter how far I walk, I get nowhere.

Maybe it’s not that I don’t have space. Maybe I don’t have time.

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Maybe this process is designed to bring me into space-time.

Click.

I’m wearing a shockingly pink shirt.

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Click.

And now, I’m dressed like a 21st Century Vamp.

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Click.

There are bunnies on my feet.

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I have a name: Sondra.

Click.

Donetta-click-Margarite-click-Sabrina-click-McKenzie-click-Yesenia.

Click.

Chavez-click-Yashimoto-click-Junaby-click-Solomon.

Click.

Yesenia Solomon.

The space flashes to white and time enters in. Five minutes.

Click.

You ask about my back story? That’s it.

I am Yesenia Solomon, and I am a Sim. This is how I came to be, and now I’ll tell you about my digital life.

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